A Thousand Days' Promise

I've caught that fever again. My addict to korean drama is back. I shouldn't be watching it. No not this time of year. End of the year is always a stressful thing for me, assessing the kids, compiling their work, concerts, parent-teacher meet ups and whole lot of shit that is stressful.

SO in order to shake the stress off, and forget the load of shit that I have piled up at work, I decided to watch some of my ol' time fave korean drama. Oh yeah not to mention, I still have yet to make up my mind whether I should resign or not.

Any who's, as I was hunting for my favourite dramas, I came across this show, which is currently airing in Korea. It's called "A Thousand Promises". It's about a girl (Soo Ae), who's suffering from Alzheimer, and a guy (Kim Rae Won) who is deeply in love with her. There's a catch to this drama, the chick is the guy's affair. The guy is forced to marry his childhood friend whom he doesn't love. It's pretty sad, but at the same time it's pretty good. It's addictive. The drawback to this drama, is that it's slow, and there's a lot of flesh backs and emotional tantrums here. But all in all I love this drama. It's awesome. So far. I might change my mind to not watch it, if it gets too boring.

Kim Rae Won-Park Ji Hyng

Soo Ae-Lee Seo Yeon

Lee Sang Woo as Jang Jae Min

Jung Yoo Mi as Noh Hyung Ki

The Catalyst, Words I Never Said

[Skylar Grey]
It’s so loud Inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said
I can’t take back the words I never said

[Lupe Fiasco]
I really think the war on terror is a bunch of bullshit
Just a poor excuse for you to use up all your bullets
How much money does it take to really make a full clip
9/11 building 7 did they really pull it
Uhh, And a bunch of other cover ups
Your childs future was the first to go with budget cuts
If you think that hurts then, wait here comes the uppercut
The school was garbage in the first place, thats on the up and up
Keep you at the bottom but tease you with the uppercrust
You get it then they move you so you never keeping up enough
If you turn on TV all you see’s a bunch of “what the f-cks”
Dude is dating so and so blabbering bout such and such
And that aint Jersey Shore, homie thats the news
And these the same people that supposed to be telling us the truth
Limbaugh is a racist, Glenn Beck is a racist
Gaza strip was getting bombed, Obama didn’t say shit
Thats why I aint vote for him, next one either
I’ma part of the problem, my problem is I’m peaceful
And I believe in the people.

[Skylar Grey - Chorus]
It’s so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said
I can’t take back the words I never said

[Lupe Fiasco - Verse 2]
Now you can say it aint our fault if we never heard it
But if we know better than we probably deserve it
Jihad is not a holy war, wheres that in the worship?
Murdering is not Islam!
Lupe Fiasco Words I Never Said lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/lupe-fiasco-words-i-never-said-lyrics.html

And you are not observant
And you are not a muslim
Israel don’t take my side cause look how far you’ve pushed them
Walk with me into the ghetto, this where all the Kush went
Complain about the liquor store but what you drinking liquor for?
Complain about the gloom but when’d you pick a broom up?
Just listening to Pac aint gone make it stop
A rebel in your thoughts, aint gon make it halt
If you don’t become an actor you’ll never be a factor
Pills with million side effects
Take em when the pains felt
Wash them down with Diet soda!
Killin off your brain cells
Crooked banks around the World
Would gladly give a loan today
So if you ever miss payment
They can take your home away!

[Skylar Grey - Chorus]
It’s so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said, never said
I can’t take back the words I never said

[Lupe Fiasco - Verse 3]
I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence
Fear is such a weak emotion thats why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few
My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through

[Skylar Grey - Chorus]
It’s so loud Inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said





God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
[x3]

No
And when I close my eyes tonight
To symphonies of blinding light

God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under loaded gun

Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky

[x2]
God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
For the sins of our hands
The sins of our tongues
The sins of our fathers
The sins of our young
No

And when I close my eyes tonight
To symphonies of blinding light

God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns

Ooh

Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky

Lift me up
Let me go
[x16]

God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
No
God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun

So Long, Fare The Well

Hello.
A few weeks ago, a relative of mine, was laid to rest to her final resting place.
She was my great aunt.
I called her tok Busu. My grandma calls her Busu Zizah.
You want to know what's sad?
I have a super big extended family, and not a single one of them called me or messaged about her death.
It's sad.
Yes I gotta admit, I'm not close with them, especially my dad's side.
I can never have a good conversation with them. This is because I was raised overseas and would only come back every few years.
But than there should not be any excuse to why they don't tell me when somebody passes away.
It breaks my heart when people don't tell me things especially about someone's death, and I gotta find out through the world wide web. Thank God for the world wide web. Without it I'll be lost. I found out about her death today.
Yes, I only balik kampung once in while, and yes, I don't go around house hopping, I only visit those whom I'm very close to. And ofcourse I visit both my lovely grandmothers when I go back to South.

Anyways, this is not the first case. A few months my late great grandma past away. We weren't told about it til a week later.
Just like the news about my late grand aunt, I broke down to tears minutes later and cry like a child. I'd tightly hug my pillow, burry my face, scream and cry, for the loss.
I was quite close to the two latters. I just don't get it why they don't tell us things.
K....I'm gonna stop, I'm crying like a child as I'm writing this. I can't see the words anymore, my tears are blocking my eyes....

Fitrah

I got lectured by my boss the other day.
Why?
Well because I refused to go to PTM (Persatuan Tadika Malaysia). She was furious about. Yes, I only have to do the last step, than I'm officially done with PTM.
Hallelujah! \(^_^)/
But, as I've mentioned in my previous posts (as if anyone reads 'em), I have a habit of procrastinating.
Yes, I like everyone else have a habit of procrastinating my work. And I've myself into trouble thousands of time because of procrastination.
In the words of my boss, who is also my mentor she always tells me "Break the habit". Whenever she tells me that this song comes playing in my little head:


Anyways, my boss asked me if I have problems entering churches.
I shook my head.

FYI, PTM holds their training session in churches,and temples. They hold it here, because these places have offered PTM for free. It just makes me wonder, why mosques can't do such offers. It would be nice to show the world that Muslim love to charity. It's part of our religion.

Ok, back to the story.

She than asks, if I have problem entering temples.
I shook my head again.

Than she asks what my problem was?
I told her I just can't be bothered attending those boring PTM training anymore. I hate them. They bore me. I always get bully to do presentations because I speak english.I hate it.

She shakes her head in dismay.

I smiled.

She than started to 'berkhutbah'.

She talked about Fitrah.

"You know what fitrah is Teacher Aminah?"

I shake my head.

"We're all born with a fitrah. Fitrah is part of our DNA. You get what I'm saying, teacher?"

I quickly shook my head.

She than continues.

"Fitrah tu cik Aminah is nature. Allah (SWT) has keyed in your DNA for you to complete your PTM. If you go what Allah has planned for you, than stresslah awak jawapanya. So another words, it is fate that you must complete your PTM, or else you'll be stress. Faham?"

I nod my head to tell you the truth, I didn't get it. So I went home and did a research on Fitrah.
Heres what I came up with:
The term fitrah basically means creation,causing a thing to exist for the first time, and the natural constitution with which a child is created in his mother's womb. One can refer to the Quran (30:29).

Therefore, my boss lecturing me about fitrah is basically wrong. She needs to read up again, or I must have misunderstand her.
God knows.

Soul washing

I recently have done a little rehabitilation for my soul. You see I'm not a perfect Muslim. People assume I'm religious because I cover my maine, but I'm not.
At times I feel like a munafik, I act as if I know things, but I don't.
So recently, Allah gave me a hidayah to go and clean my filthy soul.
I've went through the net and read a few articles on soul cleansing, and read the meaning of each doas thats recited during the prayers. I read a few times.
After reading the articles and the meanings, I finally understood the importance of prayers. I've focused hundred times better during prayers, keeping the meaning inside my head. I've valued my prayers better.
And what's more I'm also reading the translation of the quran as I go reading the holy book daily.
Alhamdullilah I've come to appreciate more as I know the meaning of the doas the and the surah's in the quran. I don't do things blindly anymore.
I remind myself I'm being watched closely by God on every movement I make. I also remind myself that sleep is death's twin and thus I've to make sure that I've completed my five daily prayers before I shut my eyes to sleep. I tell myself that I may not wake up tomorrow and that I'm lucky if l'm alive.
After each daily prayers I ask Him to grant my a life partner who's deen are better than mine, and who can help me stay in a path that leads to heaven. And he must not smoke. That's important.
Amin.
I hope He grants me my wish.
Amin.

Dear world,
I oficially am tweeting my thoughts in twitter. Twitter is now my platform for my thoughts. I'm going to stop updating my status on FB. FB is boring me...so I've decided to pour my thoughts and feelings to twitter, even though I don't have much followers. But hey who cares. Oh if you want to read my tweets, click on that little birdie on the right column, or just go straight to: www.twitter.com/Munirah85.
Arigatoo. Sayonara!

Rants

It's beautiful Sunday mornining, birds are chirping, sun is shining and the sky is blue.
Today is just a perfect day for spring cleaning. Bak kata mak bilik ni dah macam kapal karam.